I cried. I mourned. I didn’t want that answer, but I trust God and He is ALWAYS faithful (Deut. 7:9). He always has been. I could trust Him now.
Her name: Joy Belle.
“Jesus said, ‘Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them,
for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these.’” Matthew 19:14
She was ALIVE!
You see, I understand what it is like to long for something that is yet to happen. I understand what it is to hope and dream of that little life, yet God has not answered that prayer yet. I liked the name, but I wanted Melissa to continue to have hope for what God would do in her life.
Then we were pregnant, and this spring Michael comes to me and said “what about naming the baby after you?”
I always thought this was WEIRD (he had brought it up before when we were naming Lila too.)… I did not want a Laura Amanda Jr. lol. So, he explained, “well what about Charlotte?”
But then we are sitting there looking over our names and one keeps popping out… CHARLOTTE…
Charlotte means “petite and feminine.” … our little Lottie.
It was perfect!
I needed her to be okay with it. He called. He began to share with her how much we love her and how much, how significant she had been to us during this time. How scared he had been. And as he choked back tears (big manly tears!) he said “I was scared to death Laura and our baby would die and you were there for me, for us, for our baby. You walked us through this and we would love to honor you, and a name you love, by naming our baby Charlotte.” Of course she said she loved it.
Now Hope was harder to come by. I could not get the word “miracle” out of my mind, but I really didn’t feel “cool enough” to name a baby that. Hehe. So we considered several other middle names. We had a Grace (Lila Grace) and a Joy (Joy Belle), so we came into the final round with Praise and Faith. Neither of us could agree… then Grandpa Rob made a suggestion, Hope.
There is was right in front of us. Why had we not considered it? I am not really sure! We saw Hope and it was like our eyes were open.
Charlotte Hope was a perfect name for our baby.
Hope has been what we have held on to for many many years. Hope for survival of this precious life when we had already lost one twin. Hope, in the midst of fear, is what we clung to when the outcome looked so bleak. Our hope was not a passing whim of well wishing or optimism. Our hope was in that something that IS happening will continue to happen in it’s fullness. Our hope is in the One who had sustatined us …on our infertility journey, in our grief in our loss,through peace in our fear and throughout our whole lives. It is His hope that we live by and walk in. We KNOW, just as He has these last two months, He will see us through. We are certain of His presence, His hands, His strength. He formed our miracle baby in my womb and gave us hope… again and again and again.
Our ultimate Hope is in Christ who has saved us, if you do not know Him personally and would like to know Him and have this hope, please contact me. I would be happy to share with you my Jesus."Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we boast in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly. Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous person, though for a good person someone might possibly dare to die. But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.
Since we have now been justified by his blood, how much more shall we be saved from God’s wrath through him! For if, while we were God’s enemies, we were reconciled to him through the death of his Son, how much more, having been reconciled, shall we be saved through his life! Not only is this so, but we also boast in God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have now received reconciliation." Romans 5:5-11
And here she is…
our little Lottie… our
Born June 19th, 2014 Birthday
Weighing only 2 pounds 3 ounces and 15 inches long
click here: http://youtu.be/KNeKeMBk3ug
08/19/2014 – 2 Months Old
Weighing 5 pounds 9 ounces and 18.25 inches long
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.Psalm 139:14